5 Years. Infinite Memories. One Goodbye Nobody Was Ready For.

“A heartfelt MBBS farewell about friendship, chaos, heartbreak, internship, and the memories that quietly became home over 5.5 unforgettable years.”
When Goodbye Starts Softly — BST | Batch of 2020, GMC
Batch
of 2k20
Gandhi Medical College  ·  Hyderabad

When Goodbye Starts Softly

✦ 2020 ✦

A love letter to five years, one campus,
and the family we accidentally built.

Words by  BST  · Saitharun Bairagoni
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5.5
Years Together
Memories Made
60+
Duty Days
1
Family Built
Chapter One

When Goodbye Starts Softly

Some goodbyes do not come loudly. They arrive quietly… hidden between group photos, tighter hugs, longer silences, and those final glances at the campus — as if our hearts are trying to memorise every corner before leaving.

The same campus. The same people. The same faculty.
The same gossip, flirting, late-night talks, sleepless nights.
The same canteen. The same "one last chai."

Everything is still here.

But suddenly… something feels missing.

Suddenly, it feels as if our heart is no longer in the mediastinum. The day feels new — empty, silent, heavy. That last tear does not fall immediately; it hovers at the eyelid's edge…

as if it, too,
cannot leave this place.
Chapter Two

Five Years That Became a Lifetime

Five long years somehow disappeared in seconds… yet left behind memories heavy enough to stay with us for the rest of our lives.

The classrooms we bunked. The benches that saw us half-asleep. The faculty that forced us to sit through classes we barely understood. The fights for marks. The viva tension where we shivered. Going completely blank on a question we actually knew.

We may forget the answers one day…
but the heart that plunged into tachycardia at that moment?
That panic. That fear. That feeling.
We will never forget it.
It's strange, right?
These 5–6 years were barely 8% of our lifespan
yet somehow they became an entire world inside us.
Chapter Three

The Friends Who Slowly Became Family

We fought with each other. We laughed as if nothing else mattered. Those awkward moments, unnecessary dramas, random flirtings, fights in WhatsApp groups, gossip sessions about who was dating whom…

Someday, all of this will suddenly hit us
in the middle of a busy life —
and make us smile and cry
for no reason at all.

Because we did not just spend time together. We grew up together. That day, sitting alone, we will recall these moments and hold them as bittersweet memories that only live inside our hearts.

There were nights when one friend's hug held us together while everything inside us was falling apart. There were breakdowns nobody outside our circle ever knew about. Silent walks. Unreadable faces. Fake smiles hiding real pain —

— and those "I'm okay ra" moments
when we clearly were not okay.

Some memories make us laugh.
Some memories quietly break us.
And the bittersweet ones — those are the ones we keep forever.

"The rooms we shared are now empty
like our minds when we give viva."
Chapter Four

The Things We Never Wanted to Lose

There are also things we wish we had done differently. The anger we carried. The ego that stopped us from saying "sorry." The people who slowly became distant without closure. One random encounter years later… and suddenly the whole heart replays everything:

"Why did I do that?"
"We could've handled it better…"

If there is something left unfinished,
say it now.
Take that step now.

Because life is not like Naa Autograph or With Love. We do not always get another chance. Very soon, life will become busy. Too busy. And some conversations will remain conversations we never had.

Can't we hold on forever?
Manam adults ayyama?
Too busy are we going to become?
Suddenly, it feels like
the big family is slowly going offline.

Who will sit beside me tomorrow
and listen to my problems?

Na badha evariki cheppali ra? With whom should I cry?
Who will patiently listen to what I studied all day,
what irritated me, what broke me,
and what made me happy?

Pakkana chusthe evaru leru anna feeling… adhi explain cheyyalem.
Chapter Five

The Beautiful Chaos We Lived In

Exams… we studied as if our lives depended on it. Yet one question paper was enough to skip our heartbeat. From the popliteal artery in Anatomy to renal cell carcinoma in Surgery — we entered exam halls carrying dark circles, fear, caffeine, stress, and fake confidence.

Results day. Searching for our roll number. Typing each digit carefully. That sweat rolling down the side of the face. That one second before the page loads. Nothing — nothing — can match that feeling.

And somehow, in the middle of all this pressure… we still lived beautifully. Patronus. Freshers 2023. Atharva. SAMBHAV. Clashes, dances, comments, emotions, chaos, gossip, laughter — and somehow we made everything unforgettable.

The Manali trip. Tank Bund rides. Late-night ice cream cravings. First day, first show movies. Sudden plans that became core memories. Taj Mahal pictures where our batch was too big to fit into one frame.

How do we even choose
one happiest memory
when every week gave us another one?
Chapter Six

Internship Changed Us Forever

Reality hit differently there. From expectations to reality. From imagining confidence to getting scolded by PGs. From reading medicine to actually living it.

Running endlessly between patients, labs, blood banks, wards, and casualty. Around 60 duty days. Sleepless. Exhausted. Drained. Sometimes sick. Sometimes broke. Sometimes emotionally shattered. Sometimes just tired of everything.

And still…

we showed up.

Every.
Single.
Day.

We gave hope to patients even when we ourselves were struggling. Sometimes, just a few words from us made someone feel better. Somewhere in that chaos, we slowly stopped being students pretending to be doctors… and actually became doctors.

We did not just survive MBBS. We lived it.
We cried in it. We laughed at it.
We lost pieces of ourselves in it.
And somehow… we found ourselves too.

Chapter Seven

And Still, We Are Not Really Leaving

The rooms we shared are now empty… almost like our minds during viva. And honestly… I'm not able to move on, guys.

I know many of us are stuck
in the same loop right now —
replaying old moments,
smiling at memories,
and suddenly going silent
because of the fear of what comes next.

I understand you. ❤️

Life is probably designed this way — to let us experience beautiful things and then slowly watch them fade into memories. Because with every phase we complete, we leave behind a piece of our heart. And the hardest part we leave behind is always people. The friends. The family we accidentally built here.

Maybe life was made to let us
feel things deeply…
and still keep moving.

I even asked the universe once — "Can we not stop this?" But maybe life was never meant to hold us inside one emotion forever. Maybe that is why we are lucky — because not everyone gets 5.5 years to hold onto people this tightly.

And maybe that is enough.
Batch of 2020.
Gandhi Medical College, Hyderabad.
We are graduating.
We did it.
Not perfectly. Not easily.
But together.
And maybe that is enough.
Because no matter where we go, no matter how busy life gets,
one day we will come back — not as students, but as stories, of our own.

And when we do, it will not feel like leaving again.
It will feel like coming back home.
Happy Graduation to all of us. 💛
Forever Gandhians  ·  Forever 2k20
♥ ♥ ♥
Batch of 2020 — Gandhi Medical College graduation

Batch of 2020 — Gandhi Medical College

We did it. Together. Forever. 💛

Saitharun Bairagoni — BST
BST
Saitharun Bairagoni
Batch of 2020  ·  Gandhi Medical College, Hyderabad
Written with every memory still fresh, every feeling still warm.
Somewhere on a Goa beach, feeling it all.
♥   ♥   ♥
Written with love, for every soul who walked those corridors.
To everyone who finds their way back here — this is your home too.
BST · Saitharun Bairagoni  ·  2020 – 2026  ·  Gandhi Medical College